Fear Of The Unknown

Hi everyone! So it has been a year & some months since I’ve written on my blog, but I’m slowly going to get back on track. Royce, a good friend of mine/fellow blogger & his last post sparked my writing bug back up & I ended up allowing him to provide today’s topic for me to write on. So today’s post is called “Fear Of The Unknown” and I hope you all enjoy it, so please enter my thoughts…

“I’m Not Ready For That Yet!”…“I Don’t Think That’s For Me!”…

“I Don’t Believe I Can Do That Or Have That!”…“I’m Not Qualified!”…“It’s Too Risky!”…“Maybe Next Time!”…

At some point in our lives we’ve all spoken those words and if we haven’t, we someday will. It’s not that we’re not confident in ourselves or what we can accomplish, it’s that we’re afraid of the “Unknown” that comes with the possibilities of acquiring something new. Sure we all have the normal everyday routine of our lives and most people are comfortable with just that, but then there are people (LIKE ME) who want to add new ventures to make life a little more interesting and enjoyable. Sure you’re going to question and sometimes have doubts about anything new that’s entering your life and that’s normal. I can admit that I Fear The Unknown, but throughout the years I’ve learned that time is too short to waste it not living the life that you’ve been blessed with. The “Unknown” can sometimes be scary, but it can be positive or negative. What makes everyone’s “Unknown” different is how we as individuals handle it, respond to it, flourish or recover from it. I’d rather take my “Unknown” and give it my best try and either accomplish or fail with it, than to never try and think about all the wasted opportunities. I always say, “Nothing Beats A Failure Like Another Try!” and throughout the years this is what has allowed me to run straight into The Fear Of The Unknown, never backing down or straying away from it. So allow yourselves to be adventurous, fearless and life changers who will take the risks and make the most out of it.

Don't Be Afraid of The UNKNOWN...

CHALLENGE YOUR FEAR, LOVE THE CHANGE!!



When All Else Fails

Hi everyone!! :-) Today’s post is called “When All Else Fails”. Lately I’ve been trying to work on my expressiveness in my writings a little more, so I took this title and ran with it. This post is very dark in a sense and it’s something very different from what I would normally write, but I’m sure you’ll like it just the same. I WOULD LOVE YOUR FEEDBACK!!! Hope you enjoy “When All Else Fails”…

I slowly heard the words “Change the world, change you, change your life!!” whispered by the sweetest voice I’ve ever heard. But then as the dirt hit my face, I was right back in that hole that I just kept digging for myself. Then it became cruel world, cruel me, cruel life that was my prison because I refused to want better. I was sentenced to hurt, defeat, failure, and stress. My time was 10 years to life because I refused to get right. My cellmate was something called shame and she stared me back in my face daily just to remind me of who I had become. My life that was once limitless became confined to four walls that screamed out pain. And as I looked around that place… no one was at fault, but me. No one would remain there, but me. No one could hear my screams, but me. No one could see me, but me. And as the whisper got louder, I covered my ears because I couldn’t change what I had done.

You see that prison, that sentence, those 10 years to life, that cellmate and those four walls were now my life. I was trapped inside of a place because of what I had done and because I simply refused to get right. And now today I’m hearing, “Change the world, change you, and change your life!” Talk about insight!! So as I lay my head on this pillow once more…

I Wonder Who’s Going To Save Me From Me When All Else Fails???

THE CREVICE OF MY MIND pt. III

This is the 3rd installment of “The Crevice Of My Mind” and I guess I need to make this a normal thing so I can stop giving them parts LOL. So this will be the third part & each one that follows will just be “The Crevice Of My Mind”! Well I hope you enjoy my somewhat structured ramblings…

We spend most of our lives searching for things that are already in place, but it takes time to notice when those things are truly present. It’s like we fight for ways out, look for ways in, we yearn for just a drop of affection occasionally, but there comes a time when everything comes full circle for the good and hits you all at once. It’s like you ask GOD to place you where you want to be and HE places you exactly where you need to be. Or you ask GOD to place certain people in your life (or people back in your life) and HE places exactly who needs to be in your life. Or better yet, you may want a certain thing to happen and for it to happen now, but HE knows that it’s not fit for you at that present moment and HE waits to give it to you. With all of that stated, I learned that LIFE IS CARRIED OUT IN GOD’S PERFECT TIMING!!

I remember at one point feeling like everything in my life was being taken away from me, but it wasn’t until this month of August that I understood why all of that happened. You see I learned that GOD wanted to know that if HE gave me something that I truly wanted, I would value it but not allow it to diminish the relationship that I have with HIM. It’s like HE gave me something and took it back just so HE could give it back to me better than what it was the first time. Look at that!!!! So be grateful for the things that aren’t coming right away because in due time you’ll have what’s truly yours! :-)

So the beauty that has been going on in the crevice of my mind in this month of August is…

“Sometimes The Best Gift Is TIME!!! You May Not Understand It Now...But You Will One Day!”

Also check out: The Place Where My Thoughts Are Limitless…But Don’t Wander Off Too Deep In… http://thecreviceofmymind.tumblr.com/

What Doors Do You Need To Unlock?

Hi everyone!! It has seemed like absolutely forever since I’ve last posted…November 1, 2010 to be exact. That’s too long, gosh! Well happy belated CHRISTmas, Kwanzaa, Hanukkah, New Year, Valentine’s Day, Resurrection Sunday, Mother’s Day, Memorial Day…what else did I miss? LOL. Well I am back & I will try to keep up with my writings :-)

Today’s post is called “What Doors Do You Need To Unlock?”. I won’t waste time with a prelude into the writing, so I just hope that you enjoy it. Without any further delay, please enter my thoughts…

We’ve all heard the saying, “When one door closes, another one opens” and throughout our years I’m sure that we’ve experienced this saying in many ways...but that’s not what I will refer to today. You see sometimes in our lives we close doors that symbolize the things that we want to lock away. This type of door represents [that something] that we may no longer want to share again. For instance…behind this door is a room and it’s filled with only one thing that’s big enough to inhabit the entire room. This one thing is something that you no longer want anyone to see from you, hear from you, feel from you, touch from you, or smell from you. You’ve placed it behind this door and you have chosen to hide it away from the world with a simple turn of a key. That key locks it away and you have faith in that lock to be strong enough to hold whatever is in there behind that door. You hold that key hostage, promising never to give what’s being held captive the chance to be free again. Your reasoning is too many missed opportunities, unlucky chances, disappointments, those life changing events, shame, devastation, a loss of control, and so much more. But without thinking, you forget the beauty behind this one thing, the joy & happiness that it radiates, the pureness of what it stands for, and the real purpose of its meaning. Instead you lock it away from the world when it’s trying to crawl through the crevices of you [this door] just to get out. If only you knew that what’s behind that door doesn’t need to be locked away. It’s something that you should share with the world, experience, and give to others knowing that it can change your life. What’s behind that door is beautiful, it makes you who you are and it’s just crying to get out!!

BEHIND THAT DOOR IS…LOVE!!

So now the question is…

“What Doors Do You Need To Unlock?”

A MONTH OF PATIENCE

Hi everyone…so like I expressed in my last post, I dedicated the month of October to the word PATIENCE & now that the month is over, my journey with this word will definitely continue on. Today’s post is called “A Month Of PATIENCE” and basically it will touch on some of the things that I’ve learned while allowing this word & the actions of this word to really transform my thoughts, emotions, attitude & basically my life. Hope you enjoy my thoughts...

What started October 1, 2010 & ended just yesterday, October 31, 2010 has helped me in so many ways. Yes, it’s easy to say we’re going to focus on something for a month & hope that it makes an impact on our lives, but “A Month Of PATIENCE” really created a life change for me. I am so impatient with the smallest of things & when I first started this PATIENCE journey, it was so difficult. I couldn’t get with it & my nerves would become bothered even more but as I stuck with it & the days passed, I started to notice small changes. Each morning I begin with a different scripture & inspirational quote & I made sure that those positive things were my focus point for my entire day. It definitely became easier, especially towards the middle of the month. :-)

Through “A Month Of PATIENCE” I was able to control some of my many thoughts that constantly parade around in my head. I over think so much to the point that it causes me to react without truly taking enough time to process things but during the middle of the month I really got a grip on the things that I think & allow myself to say. It has changed my attitude in a way that I didn’t think was possible. Believe it or not, I get mad very fast & I tend to just shut down when that happens but slowly I’ve seen a change in this area & I know it’ll be a continuous change. Now emotions…LOL where do I start?? The PATIENCE journey allowed me to really sit down & get a hold on my emotions. I gave myself time to explore my feelings & purge a lot of things that didn’t need to be there (in my life & my thoughts). I got so many reality checks from myself about my thoughts, words & actions. I’m glad it’s easier now to keep my mouth closed & my thoughts to myself, not be quick to react, control my opinions, don’t jump to conclusions, and not over think so much. My little sister says that the only thing I need to practice PATIENCE with now is when I’m driving…LOL…and I definitely agree with her but that’s going to take some time!! Well October went by so fast but I know that I will continue this journey day by day.

This was yesterday's entry:

Scripture: Philippians 3:13 ...But This One Thing I Do, Forgetting Those Things Which Are Behind & Reaching Forth Unto Those Things Which Are Before.

Oct. 31st...GOD Is The Restorer Of Broken Things & It's HIS Desire That Nothing Be Wasted! WordOfTheMonth: PATIENCE; FocusedOn: LIFE CHANGES!

Today Wraps Up My Journey Of "A Month Of PATIENCE" & It Has Helped Me In A Great Way. Looking Forward To Continuing! So In Closing..."A Month Of PATIENCE"...Once I Chose To Trust GOD, HE Enabled Me To Wait! Because FAITH Is A Risk, Pure & Simple...I'm Willing To Risk The Wait!

 

So please…allow yourself to have just “A Month Of PATIENCE” & I promise it will start to transform your life.

Significance

Hi everyone, today’s post is called “Significance” & I decided to write on this topic for various reasons. The most important reason being that sometimes we as humans always question our importance in the world, in other people’s lives, and yes even to ourselves. So I hope you enjoy the route that I will take with this one, so please enter my thoughts…

I am not everything that I should be… I am nowhere near where I should be heading… I am not sure of the next step… I don’t have it all together even though everyone around me assumes that I do... I am not perfect… I mess up & make plenty of mistakes… I sometimes let my thoughts get the best of me… And with that stated…

"What Is My "SIGNIFICANCE" Now?"

We are our own worst critics. We think & hear our thoughts, we know our own faults, our strong points & we question the significance of so many things, including ourselves. Well I’m saying [We] but it may not be [You] but I know that it is [Me]. I’m at a time in my life where I’m observing my words, my actions, how I treat people, and what I want out of this life of mine. I’ll admit that I’ve been selfish 60% of my life & that’s a huge percentage but this month of October has opened up so many emotions towards life's choices. I finally understand that I am not living for myself anymore & that the most significant things in my life are right in front of my face & I never took the time out to notice it in that way before. I’ve dedicated the month of October to the word PATIENCE & it really has transformed my way of thinking. At the end of the month I’ll do a special post on what I learned. But through this & thinking about what’s significant as a whole, I know that I won’t live thinking that every disappointment or mess up in my life will break me as a person. I realize that I have a lot of work to do but I know that I have so many opportunities in front of me.

So I’ve questioned my "Significance" in this world, the lives of others & my own so much & what I’ve finally found is that throughout everything that I stated at the beginning of this post, my “Significance”
is strong!! I say that because...

I am not everything that I use to be… I have the drive to press on towards where I am heading… I have the faith to keep moving until I reach that next step… I never have to pretend like I have it all together because my mistakes keep me humbled... My imperfections are what make me, ME… My mess-ups & mistakes teach me lessons for tomorrow… My thoughts will no longer keep me hesitant or afraid to truly take chances & live… And with that stated...

My “SIGNIFICANCE” Is Now!!

SMILE AGAIN

Hi everyone, so today’s post is called “Smile Again”! Just something that has been on my mind lately & I decided to put it in words the best way that I know how. I hope you enjoy. :-D

Smile Again…

I never knew what love felt like until you found me

You became my reason to wake up without worrying about what was around me

When I thought life was over & it couldn’t get any better

You became the light that guided me to make it through the stormy weather

Smile Again…

I’ve learned to put my trust in you, not just when times are good but in everything that I do

I know each day will get better if I continue to give my all to you

Even when times seem hard, I know I can depend on you

Because life is worth the living now that I know I owe so much to you

Smile Again…

So despite my hang-ups, mess-ups, mistakes & bad choices, you continue to love me & I’ll never know why 

It’s amazing that for me, that’s the reason that you died. Just to show your glory & save the people from sin 
You rose from the grave & you’re coming back again 

So whenever I’m feeling like I can’t make it another day, I stop and pray and realize…

Yes, You Are The Reason I...Smile Again!!

Depth Revealed

Newness: Thank You GOD For Just Another Day At A Chance At Life Again! Lately I haven’t been getting that much sleep because my dreams have been difficult for me, I guess I need to start writing when I’m up like that. Well I cannot even express my experience on yesterday (09/19/10)…I just know that GOD confirmed a lot of things in my life that I’ve been concerned about lately. So I’m happy to say last night I slept very well…I’m talking about crazy sleep that lasted hours LOL. Just wanted to update y’all on how I’m doing & I hope you all are doing well also.

So today’s topic is called “Depth Revealed” & I just wanted to share something that is very close to my heart & has transformed my life in so many ways. So I hope you all enjoy my thoughts…

It’s limitless, timeless, hopeful, soothing, calming, lifting & it causes a release. It’s breaking & strengthening at the same time, one tool that sometimes unlocks the door to a person’s life changing & it’s so much more. What am I talking about??? I’m talking about "Worship Music"! Yep & that’s exactly what worship music does for me! It shares the love of CHRIST in the form of music & just to hear the words being sung about the love that HE had & has for us, HIS grace, healing power & promises for us is always so amazing to me. The music speaks to my soul & it also gives me another way that I can communicate back to GOD all of my love for HIM. After going through so much 9 months ago with the lost of my mother to cancer, this is what got me through all of the broken points. I would just stay up in the middle of the night & each night I would have one specific worship song on repeat & I would talk to GOD. Worship music allowed me to know that no matter what life brings, GOD is always going to show that HE knows best, no matter what the situation.

One of my favorite songs is “Moving Forward” --Israel Houghton & no matter what emotion I'm feeling before, when I listen to this song it brings me to a place where I’m so thankful for life, hopeful for my future, grateful for HIS grace & HIS saving power…and I could go on for days. Israel Houghton to me is one of those few people that can actually capture your attention with the beauty of music & the love of GOD in that music. So please whenever you have time take a listen to the live version of "Moving Forward" in this link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XqZCm_mqLi8 I hope it blesses you :-)

“Depth Revealed”: “Music Has A Way Of Taking You Away From The Ordinary And Placing You In A World Where Your Soul Dances With Your Heart & Thoughts!” -- JACKIE

THE CREVICE OF MY MIND pt.II

So this is the 2nd installment of “The Crevice Of My Mind” and it’s definitely different from the 1st one I did back in February. So as I allow you access to these thoughts, I hope you enjoy the read. Welcome to The Crevice Of My Mind pt. II…

Life sometimes has a way of knocking you down just to build you up into the person that you should be. But whether you choose to get up or not, will change the rest of the course on your journey of life. Sometimes I question decisions that I’ve made in the past & even some that I’ve made recently, wondering if my life would be different at this very point! I’m definitely sure that it would be different but would it be what I want is the question. Where I am in life right now isn’t perfect but it's great & where I think I need to be. It’s what’s keeping me humble & thinking positive at all times. It’s keeping me structured & full of hope for my future. It’s keeping me on a high but withholding certain things right now so that I won’t drop the ball. It’s showing me that my life is full of more life that will eventually grow into even more life. It’s a cycle that will keep moving, growing & changing all for the betterment of who I am & will ultimately become. So do I want it to be different? Well my answer to that is that it will become different, not in the time that I want it to but in the time that it’s supposed to.

All I can say is: IT’S LIFE…

HONESTY vs. DECEIT

Hi everyone, so I’m excited to share today’s piece called “HONESTY vs DECEIT”! I’m going to break this topic into 2 categories: (1) How Destructive It Is To Be Deceitful? & (2) How Rewarding It Is To Be Truthful? Through these 2 categories, I hope that I can establish my point when it comes to HONESTY! I’m truly happy to be back writing, so without any further delay, please enter my thoughts…

Just for a moment I want you to think back to a time that you were intentionally lied to. Ok now how did it make you feel? I’m sure it wasn’t a pleasant feeling & it probably left you questioning the other person’s reasoning for being deceitful. Most likely you said to yourself, “They should’ve just told the truth, it would’ve been better!” Well that’s what today’s topic is all about, Honesty opposed to Deceit! Now if you’re like me, it takes a lot for you to trust people & what they tell you or generally say. When first starting off, I will believe that a person is honest until they start showing me that they are deceitful. I always say it’s better to tell the truth than a lie because lies always have ways of turning your world upside down. Now let’s move to the 2 categories:

How Destructive It Is To Be Deceitful: Now deceit causes people to lose respect & trust for you as a person, as well as a friend. The simplest lie can cause so many negative consequences towards your life. It leaves another person feeling like they don’t matter in your life if you have to lie to them. So a lie, no matter the extent, will ultimately cause some type of destruction in your life. If the person has found out, I think they would be upset because you felt like you couldn’t tell them the truth. If the person hasn’t found out YET, that means you’ll always have to keep that lie up & going. My opinion about this is whether you tell the truth or a lie, either way you’ll end up hurting someone…SO WHY NOT TELL THE TRUTH?

How Rewarding It Is To Be Truthful: Now when a person is truthful, that opens so many doors when it comes to trust. It creates a key that allows the other person to value you more for your honesty. It guarantees that a person won’t have a reason to question what you say or tell them unless you give them a reason to. A truthful person is rewarded by being respected. If you’re in a situation where the truth will hurt & a lie will eventually hurt if it ever came out, your best bet would be to tell the truth. Yes, the other person will be mad at the time but they will look back and say, “I respect him or her for telling the truth & not hiding it through a lie!”

So in closing I’ll say, “Yes I’ve had my deceitful situations & my truthful situations & if I could go back in time, I wouldn’t have been deceitful.” I say that because eventually the truth came out & I hurt other people & lost their respect. To this day I’m still apologetic towards some situations I caused through deceit & I hope one day I’ll be forgiven. We need to understand that all we have nowadays is our word & you should always want your word to be trusted & respected. I’d rather be truthful, honest, and upfront with a person, no matter if it will hurt their feelings or not because they’ll always be able to keep their respect for me for being truthful. When it comes to honesty, not a lot of people believe that it works but I’d rather have that any day than deceit.

Truth Or Deceit…Which One Would You Choose As Your So Called “HONESTY”?